That Person

Who is this person staring at me in the mirror?  It is not the person that I once knew.  This person does not look anything like what I remember.  I remember a person who was fat, ugly and nothing special to look at.  Now I see a more slimier person who is not ugly, but yet I do not see them as special.  This person used to be crazy, and now they are not!  They used to be a real bitch and pissed at the world, not anymore.  This person I see is a much stronger person, a person in a much better place in their life.  This person is still young and has a lot more to learn about everything.  But this is not the person of the past anymore this is the person that is going to look forward to the future.  This person is going too live each day as if it were the last.  This person is a much more enduring person, but what choice did that person have?  To give up, well I am glad that person decided not to do that.  As I recall that person thought of that many times.  I am glad that I am not that person anymore and when I look in the mirror I see much better image of myself!!

The Puzzle Piece

Being perfect is not a reality and you will never be perfect!  You will just have to accept that.  Not everything you do is going to be right.  Yet there are somethings in life that will come along that will make life seem a little more perfect.  For  instance when you finally meet that one person that is right for you, that one person that is going to compliment you, complete you.  Then life will seem a little more perfect.  This is that one person who is your missing puzzle piece, the person who fits in just right.  When you have found your puzzle piece everything will seem perfect even when in fact things are not.  But that person just makes you feel better no matter what the situation is.  You know everything will be ok and one day things might be perfect.  So when you find your missing puzzle piece do not take it for granted.  Enjoy everyday and every moment that you get to spend with that person, never unappreciate it.  Life is too short to find something like that and throw it away.  So the question is really when will you find your puzzle piece?   Well I really do not have an answer on that, but I just think you will know when it happens.  You will feel it in your heart and every part of your body.  When you have a smile on your face and you can not get them out of your mind.  then maybe, just maybe you have found it!!!

This is to my someone that is somewhere out there and one day we will fall in love

You're the sun in my days

The moon on my nights

The stars that shine so bright

You make everything right

The smile upon my face

The sparkle in my eyes

You're the reason why

You're the wind in my sails

You're the reason I am not going to fail

From yesterday till tomorrow

You know I will follow

I'll always be right by your side

I will never hide

Close your eyes take a chance

We can go for a dance

From sun up till sun down

I will always be around

Yet if I were to wonder away

I know you would not let me go astray

I'll love every bit of you

Loving everything you do

Break Out

Ok I wrote this right after I got divorced in 2008. That was at a bad time in my life dealing with my feelings and everything that was going on!

This is my song and one day you might hear it on the radio!!!!

Trying to find my place in this world.
Where do I belong?
It seems so long ago I knew, now I have no clue.
The walls are closing in on me I find myself not able to breath

Chorus..
I gotta break out, break out break out of this place
I gotta find me a new place
Somewhere, where I will see that I am meant to me

They tell you it will be all right
But how the Hell do they know?
All the fighting, all the pain
makes me go insane
I wish it would all go away

Chorus..
I gotta break out, break out, break out of this place
I gotta find me a new space
Somewhere where I will see
that I am ment to be

One day I will see that this was the right path for me
All the hurt and all the pain will fade away
A new dawning is near
I soon shall have no fear

Chorus..
I am going to break out, break out, break out of this place
I know now that I will find a new space
Somewhere I know that I am ment to be

The darkness is passing by
I can start to see the light
A spectrum of green, gold and white
The end is not here
that I know now
the begining is near
I soon shall have no fear

Chorus..
Becuase I am going to break out, break out break out of this place
I know now that I will find a new space
Somewhere I know that I am ment to be
Somehwere I hope that love will find me
I am going to break out.....break out

What U Do

Flames, the flames in my heart are burning.

There is a sparkle that has been ignited in me

One that I have been longing for

A burning so high and bright

It just feels right

There is now a sparkle in my eye

A smile upon my face

All this you have all done to me

There is nothing that I could to say to you

To let you know what you do to me

In time I hope to be all that

All that you would ever want and need

With out you I feel I can not breath

You keep me from falling apart

Written 5-27-2009

Where is my path leading too?  I really wish I knew.  As I am walking through the woods there is no one around.  I can smell the sacchariferous of the flowers.  The green grass is all around me.  I can hear the birds singing their songs and the branches cracking under my feet.  The sky above me seems clear but it is hard to tell.  There is a canopy of leaves covering it.  I come upon a rock, so I sit there and wonder.......I wonder what kind of life I will have from here.  I wonder if I will ever find someone to hold me near.

Small tid bits I have wrote

Joy in my eyes, a sparkle!!  A smile upon my face!!  Once that can not be displaced

All these words I have inside, just can not describe, all of the feelings that I have!

Dear you, dear me.....what is meant to be will be!!!!

Decision

A cloudy day, when will the sun appear?  Over the hills you see it, it is wanting to come near.  Will it brighten your day, that is still yet unknown.  A shadow of doubt sets in your mind as you sit there and wait.  Waiting for the sun to come near.  Over the other way you see it, beyond the hills. There is something different!  A storm is coming near.  You sit there and wonder which one will come first.  The blue skies or the storm?  All the while thinking which one would be better..............It is then you decide!  You decide to have it storm like no other storm before, let the furry of hell come out.  Let the rain come down and the lightening strike you.  For you know in the end that this will only make you stronger.  When the sun finally decides to appear, you know then that you are ready for true happiness.

Morning Heat

It is so early in the morning

Yet you can already feel it

You walk out the door

It is instant

The sweltering heat

Like a slap in the face

You can feel the stickiness

You're clothes are stuck to you like glue

A stickiness so bad

You want to peel your clothes off layer by layer

You're frizzy mane is pulled back out of your face

The sweat is dripping down

Dripping all the way down your back

You wipe your brow

The mugginess is like a thick cloud

Oh these joys

The joys of a hot summer morning

A Summer Storm

The Ocean

I can feel the warm gentle breeze blowing through my golden curly hair

The waves are crashing on the rocks

The warm sand beneath me the bright sun shining on me

Covered in oil my skin is glistening upon my golden tan

My blue eyes peek through my sunglasses

I look out in to the wide open blue water of the ocean

I sit in this serene moment and I come to understand

To understand the endless possibilities of life

I am going to go out and catch a wave

I am going to ride it out and see where it will take me

The Light

From the sky up above me a light shined upon me

A light so bright it almost blinded me

A light of love could it be

or a light of death coming to take me?

As I laid there and stared at it my eyes grew tired

I felt my self drifting away

In the back of my mind I was screaming

Please don't take me!

High Road

Who am I to say what is right or wrong?  All I can tell you is what I know from all the things that I have been through.  Life is not easy but you have to remember that you have the power to choose your path.  That decision is within you.  You can choose to be the so called "Bitch" or you can choose to take the high road.  Remember that you are in control, you are the one that gets to decide how you are going to act or react to every situation that may come your way.  You choose what you are going to say, no one has the power to make you say the things you say or do the things you do.  You are control of your self and you decisions.  What you can not control is how someone will react to you, but you choose how you will.  You have to choose to be the better person, the one who takes the high road.  In the end you will realize that you made the right choices, because in the end you end up happy.  The road to happiness has its ups, it downs, its twists and turns but in the end you have learned from it all.  What you realized from the journey is that sometimes in life making the right decisions, are really the hardest decisions that you will ever make.